Amber Smith

All Eden wants is to rewind the clock. To live that day again. She would do everything differently. Not laugh at his jokes or ignore the way he was looking at her that night. And she would definitely lock her bedroom door. But Eden can’t turn back time. So she buries the truth, along with the girl she used to be. She pretends she doesn’t need friends, doesn’t need love, doesn’t need justice. But as her world unravels, one thing becomes clear: the only person who can save Eden … is Eden.

For fans of Love, Simon and Eleanor and Park, a romantic and sweet novel about a transgender boy who falls in love for the first time—and how first love changes us all—from New York Times bestselling author Amber Smith.Chris and Maia aren’t off to a great start.A near-fatal car accident first brings them together, and their next encounters don’t fare much better. Chris’s good intentions backfire. Maia’s temper gets the best of her.But they’re neighbors, at least for the summer, and despite their best efforts, they just can’t seem to stay away from each other.The path forward isn’t easy. Chris has come out as transgender, but he’s still processing a frightening assault he survived the year before. Maia is grieving the loss of her older sister and trying to find her place in the world without her. Falling in love was the last thing on either of their minds.But would it be so bad if it happened anyway?

A twisted tragedy leaves Brooke and her siblings on their own in this provocative new novel from the New York Times bestselling author of The Way I Used To Be.How do you let go of something you’ve never had?Junior year for Brooke Winters is supposed to be about change. She’s transferring schools, starting fresh, and making plans for college so she can finally leave her hometown, her family, and her past behind.But all of her dreams are shattered one hot summer afternoon when her mother is arrested for killing Brooke’s abusive father. No one really knows what happened that day, if it was premeditated or self-defense, whether it was right or wrong. And now Brooke and her siblings are on their own.In a year of firsts—the first year without parents, first love, first heartbreak, and her first taste of freedom—Brooke must confront the shadow of her family’s violence and dysfunction, as she struggles to embrace her identity, finds her true place in the world, and learns how to let go.

The inspiring and riveting first-ever memoir of active combat by a female helicopter pilot in Iraq and Afghanistan. Amber Smith flew into enemy fire in some of the most dangerous combat zones in the world. One of only a few women to fly the Kiowa Warrior helicopter—whose mission, armed reconnaissance, required its pilots to stay low and fly fast, perilously close to the fight—Smith deployed to Iraq and Afghanistan as a member of the elite 2-17 Cavalry Regiment, part of the legendary 101st Airborne Division, the Screaming Eagles. She rose to Pilot-in-Command and Air Mission Commander in the premier Kiowa unit in the Army, repeatedly flying into harm’s way during her 2005 and 2008 deployments. In Danger Close , Smith takes us into the heat of battle, enabling readers to feel, hear, and smell the experience of serving as a combat pilot in high-intensity warfare. This is an edge-of-the seat story of learning to perform under pressure and persevere under extreme duress—both in action against an implacable enemy and within the elite “boy’s club” of Army aviation. Smith’s unrelenting fight for both mastery and respect delivers universal life-lessons that will be useful to any civilian, from “earning your spurs” as a newbie to “embracing the suck” through setbacks that challenge your self-confidence to learning to trust your gut as a veteran of your profession. Intensely personal, cinematic, poignant, and inspiring, Danger Close is a war story on one hand, and also the story of a brave pilot who fought for and earned a lifetime membership in the ranks of the best of the best.

Una notte, il mondo di Eden viene capovolto e ogni sua certezza va in frantumi. Ora ha solo bisogno di raccogliere i pezzi e ricomporre sé stessa. Tutto ciò che Eden vorrebbe è mandare indietro le lancette dell'orologio per rivivere quel giorno. Perché, se potesse, farebbe tutto diversamente: ignorerebbe il modo in cui lui la guardava, non riderebbe alle sue battute. E sicuramente chiuderebbe a chiave la porta della camera da letto. Ma Eden non può tornare indietro nel tempo, non può impedire che il migliore amico di suo fratello abusi di lei, e così seppellisce la verità, insieme alla semplice ragazza del liceo che era. Finge di non aver bisogno degli amici, di non aver bisogno dell'amore, di non aver bisogno che venga fatta giustizia. In fondo, niente potrà essere più come prima, d'ora in poi andrà a scuola ogni mattina con i pugni chiusi e gli occhi asciutti, come una sopravvissuta. Ma mentre il suo mondo va in pezzi, una cosa le diventa ben presto chiara: l'unica persona che può salvarla è lei stessa. Quella che ero prima è un debutto straordinario, diventato bestseller del New York Times tramite il passaparola di milioni di lettori che lo hanno scoperto grazie al BookTok. Una storia sulla resilienza femminile che affascina per la sua sincerità e il suo coraggio.

Tudo o que Eden quer é distanciar-se do passado. Eden sempre foi boa a ser boa. Gosta de livros, gosta de bandas. Tem jeito para muita coisa. É curiosa. Começar o ensino secundário não alterou nada disso nela. Era só mais um passo. Porém, na noite em que o melhor amigo do irmão a viola, o mundo fica virado do avesso. O que antes era simples é agora complexo. Do que Eden gostava — de quem ela gostava — já não gosta, odeia. O que entendia como verdades parecem-lhe agora mentiras. Sabe que deveria contar a alguém o que aconteceu. Mas não pode. Como solução, enterra o passado. Enterra o que era antes. Mas Eden não conhece a força que traz escondida no coração. A provocadora estreia da autora Amber Smith aborda os cortes profundos provocados pelo trauma, mas também a força de uma jovem que lida com as deceções e dores quase insuportáveis da adolescência.

All Eden wants is to rewind the clock. To live that day again. She would do everything differently. Not laugh at his jokes or ignore the way he was looking at her that night. And she would definitely lock her bedroom door. But Eden can’t turn back time. So she buries the truth, along with the girl she used to be. She pretends she doesn’t need friends, doesn’t need love, doesn’t need justice. But as her world unravels, one thing becomes clear: the only person who can save Eden … is Eden.

Eden and Josh decide to give their relationship another chance in this much anticipated sequel to the New York Times bestseller The Way I Used to Be that explores how to move forward after trauma—in life and in love.Eden and Josh never had a fair shot at a healthy relationship. When they dated in high school, they each had their own problems getting in the way of the deep connection they felt toward one another. Unbeknownst to Josh, Eden was carrying the burden of a devastating sexual assault, while Josh was dealing with his own private struggle of having an alcoholic father. Months after Eden and two other girls publicly accuse their rapist, Eden is starting college while her case goes to trial. Now when she and Josh reconnect, it seems like it might finally be in the right place at the right time for them to make it work. But is their love strong enough to withstand the challenges and chaos of college and the crushing realities of a trial that will determine whether Eden gets the justice she deserves?