Jay McLean

More Than Enough is book five in the More Than series and may be read as a standalone, though it is recommended to read in series order. Series reading order: More Than This (Book one) More Than Her (Book two) More Than Him (Book three) More Than Forever (Book four) -- There’s no emotion greater than fear. No ache greater than grief. No sound greater than silence. *** I’m grateful he showed up on my doorstep, pissed off and angry at the world. If he hadn’t, I wouldn’t be here. And I don’t just mean here on this journey with him. I mean here, in this world. * I wonder what events in all our lives—hers included—are The Turning Points? The points where we all determine that the fear of our pasts and the uncertainty of our futures are greater than our need for happiness. Here. Now. While time and everything around us stands unmoving… who’s to say we can’t have it all? *** We wanted it all. We wanted it with each other. We thrived on the chaos we created. And ignored the Mayhem that ensued. Because falling in love was easy. But sometimes, love isn’t enough.

"For every action there is an equal or opposite reaction." For every choice you make there are rewards, or there are consequences. It was my choice to walk away the first time. And my choice to chase her the second. But sometimes you don't get a choice, and all you get are the consequences. "Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength, while loving someone deeply gives you courage.” Unless that someone is Logan Matthews.  Because loving him didn't give me the strength to walk away. It didn't give me the courage to fight for him. And when it was over, all it gave me was a broken heart.

In a sprint, every millisecond counts.  When you’re waiting for love, those milliseconds can feel like eons.  High school senior Lucas Preston has it all: star of the track team, a scholarship waiting for him, an apartment to himself and a revolving door of girlfriends. He also has an older sister, five younger brothers and a father who relies on him to make sure those brothers don’t kill each other.  His saving grace? Lois “Laney” Sanders, a girl he started to fall in like with when he was just eleven. A girl who became his best friend, his confidant, his courage.  It took only sixteen clicks and eight seconds for Lucas to realize that his like for Laney had turned into love.   Eight life-changing seconds.  It’s also the exact length of time it took to lose her.

-LUCY- There is a love so fierce it cannot be measured. A heart so strong it will never slow. There is a promise so sure it can never lie. He promised me that love forever. Even when it wasn't enough. -CAMERON- Forever. Everlasting. Eternal. There is no measure of time. No sounds of the ticking of a clock. Just the rising and falling of the sun. And our own sense of forever. But our forever isn't always.

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us." - Marianne Williamson We live in a world of darkness and shadows, where monsters hide and aim to ruin. And they did. They ruined us and turned our dreams into nightmares. But now we're back. And we're fighting. Not just for us, or for each other, but for our light. More Than Him is book #3 in the More Series and should not be read prior to reading More Than This (More, #1) and More Than Her (More, #2). More Than Him is the continuation of Logan and Her story.

When Mikayla imagined her prom night, she envisioned a fairy-tale evening full of romance. So when betrayal and tragedy come in quick succession, Mikayla is completely destroyed. Suddenly, everything she loved and everyone she relied on are tragically, irrevocably gone. Jake, a handsome boy she just met, happens to witness her loss. With no one to turn to, Mikayla is forced to depend on this near stranger and his family, and he in turn is determined to take care of her. But Mikayla—thrust into adulthood with no one to guide her—is desperate to contain her grief and hide what she considers to be her weakness. Mikayla and Jake both want more, but despite their growing closeness and intense chemistry, she tries to keep her distance and protect her heart. As he does everything in his power to win her trust, Mikayla must choose between remaining alone and safe or letting love in. Revised edition: This edition of More Than This includes editorial revisions.

“I loved you then, I love you now, and I’ve loved you every single day in between.” Jameson Taylor is a nomad. A drifter. A memory collector. Or, at least, that’s what’s become of her life ever since she was forced to leave pieces of her fractured heart behind. “This is the fault in our fate, our one undoing: All he’s ever wanted is my happiness, even when it costs him his own.” Holden Eastwood is resentful. Angry. But most of all, hurt. Torn to pieces by the girl who left him, he struggles to find forgiveness in the organ she once broke. When a tragedy forces them to face the aftermath, Jamie seeks acceptance, while Holden searches for answers. What they find, instead, are remnants of their love. Fragments of forever. And parts of a puzzle that will lead them to the truth… A truth that might shatter them to pieces.

They could’ve been perfect. In another time. Another world. Where his wasn’t falling apart. And hers wasn’t already in pieces. - High school senior Holden Eastwood only has one fear in life: growing up. He spends his days unmotivated, moving from one game to the next, searching for his next challenge. He never expected that challenge to come in the form of a girl… A girl with zero fashion sense, a filthy mouth, and a bullsh*t attitude. Unlike Holden, Jameson Taylor had no choice but to grow up. Neglected, isolated, and forced to raise herself, Jameson only has one goal in life: graduate and move on. The last thing she needs is some guy she can’t stand suddenly declaring her as his new hobby. Their lives couldn’t be more opposite. Their pasts a complete paradox. But in each other, they find the unexpected… They find solace. Fragments of forever… A forever that might tear them to pieces.

As a kid, Logan Preston was a brat. Through his teens, he became the bad boy. Now, at nineteen, no one knows what the hell to expect. High school dropout, Logan Preston is a good-for-nothing stoner. A black sheep. A disappointment. The worst Preston Punk of the lot. At least that’s how everyone in his small town makes him feel. But Logan Preston has secrets. Secrets so dark and so deep below the surface that the only way he can fight them is to stay high, high, high. He wears cockiness as a mask. Arrogance as his armor. Until one girl, one night, asks one life-changing question: What's beneath the bravado, Logan Preston?

Two simple words hold the truth of our love: wait and hope. Olivia Rhys Garrett—recent high school graduate, ex-captain of the basketball team, and my brother’s rival both on and off the court. Oh, and he’s also the guy I just hit with my truck. Awesome. To be fair, he had it coming. Why else was he dressed in all black, in the middle of the night, if not to hide out amongst the darkness? Rhys I wasn’t looking where I was going or what was around me. I didn’t even see the headlights. Just felt the impact. And I thought, as strange as it was, that getting hit by a car may be the best thing that could’ve happened to me. Until I opened my eyes… …and she told me her name. * Some might call it fate, destiny, kismet… A collision of souls. One night. One chance encounter. The problem? One night wasn’t enough. But the more time we spent together, the more truths came to light. And soon, we’d discover that what we once thought was meant to be… …is not made to last.

First and Forever is the second book in the Heartache Duet, and must be read after Heartache and Hope. Duet Synopsis: Ava Diaz needs saving. She just doesn’t know it yet. Just like she doesn’t know a thing about the boy she sits next to on the first day of senior year. He thinks she’s a brat. She thinks he’s entitled. Maybe first impressions don’t always last… Because Connor Ledger’s about to save her. He just doesn’t know why. Blurb for First and Forever coming soon

Ava Diaz needs saving. She just doesn’t know it yet. Just like she doesn’t know a thing about the boy she sits next to on the first day of senior year. He thinks she’s a brat. She thinks he’s entitled. Maybe first impressions don’t always last… Because Connor Ledger’s about to save her. He just doesn’t know why.

What started as a bet can only end in heartache. Moving to the middle of nowhere right before my senior year wasn’t ideal. Then again, neither was my brother dying. The move was supposed to be a fresh start. A new town, a new school, a new mindset. Too bad my past indiscretions followed me. Enter Jace Rivera, the literal boy next door. Jace is loved by the town. Admired by his peers. Worshipped by his teammates. On the basketball court, he’s a god amongst men. Off the court, he’s… nothing at all like I expected. He’s profound and pure and… devastatingly tortured. Yet somehow, he offers me light while I offer him hope. In the end, we’ll either hurt or heal each other. There’s no in between. “Pain is the price we pay for love,” he once told me. And a broken heart is the consequence of it.

Some villains are made.  Some villains are born.  And some villains aren’t villains at all.  
 Nate DeLuca was born into a life he didn’t want. Forced to walk a path that was already chosen for him.  Grandson to a mob boss, he’s forever torn between his duty, his honor, his legacy, and the truth.  But the truth is never simple, and it’s not at all what it seems.  
 In a world full of secrets, heartache, and betrayals, Nate only has one thing on his mind: redemption.  But with redemption comes destruction.  And that destruction might cost him his heart.  *** Three Lives.  Two Loves.  One ticking time bomb… Tick tock. 

One single summer changed them forever, and one moment of devastating silence destroyed it all.  Growing up with six siblings, Leo Preston has always struggled to find his voice. While his brothers are loud, greedy, and somewhat obnoxious, Leo is forever the quiet one. The thinker.  The listener.  He watches his life pass by as an outsider in his own world, absent and alone.  Lost. Until he finds her.  For Leo, Mia Kovács is like a prize, a gift wrapped in passion and devotion. And she’s his—his very own secret he doesn’t have to share.  Together, they can overcome anything… heartache and destruction, guilt and regret.  Mia gives Leo everything he didn’t know he needed,  including her fragile heart.  The only thing she doesn’t give him...  are secrets of her own. 

It’s the same old story, really. Good versus evil. Heroes versus villains. Light versus dark. For two years, college freshman Noah Morgan lived his life somewhere in the middle, fighting darkness and light, always searching for answers to a single Why, Noah, why? The same three words keep him up at night, struggling for air while gripping a plastic cylinder containing white pills to match the white label with his name printed in ink as deep and dark as his memories—memories that turned him into a recluse. A shut-in. An introvert. Luckily for him, that’s not how the girl next door sees him.

One life-changing summer. One boy. The boy. The boy who offered me safe touches and heart-stopping smiles - smiles he shared with his son. We filled our days with porch-step kisses, filled our ears with laughter, filled our hearts with love. Deep, soul-aching, desperate love. But love is misleading. It's an invisible, fleeting moment. Somewhere between false adoration and pure hatred comes an emotion, a vulnerable need, a single desire. It lives within the ones who miss it, who crave it, who know better than to expect it. Love is relentless. Even when that love turns to hate, turns to loathing, turns to pain. Love should heal you. But it can also break you. Believe me, I know... Because I'm Becca Owens - a broken girl... ...And he's Josh Warden - the boy who broke me.

It’s said that your life flashes before your eyes when you die. It must only happen to those whose lives are worthy. Clearly, Bailey’s life is not. Unwanted from the day she was born, and then discarded, Bailey’s only plan in life is to make it through to the next day. But one hopeless night, one wrong decision, and one pull of the trigger changes everything. Not just for her, but for Nate DeLuca too. Born into a world of crime, he had his entire life planned out for him. He wasn’t supposed to find her that night. He wasn’t meant to capture her, either. And he sure as hell wasn’t meant to save her. Sometimes villains are born. And sometimes… heroes are made.

We all play victims to our pasts, to the choices we make and the lives we create. They define who we are. And sometimes if we’re lucky enough, the past stays where it belongs: in the past. Kyler Parker is not one of the lucky ones. He has never been. Abused and neglected until he was sixteen, Kyler needed an out. A way to escape. And he found it in the most unlikely friendship. But at seventeen, tragedy struck, and he made himself disappear. Now, at twenty-four, Kyler’s past is knocking on his door, offering a deal he has no choice but to take… a deal that will help bring justice—not just for him, but for his brothers. The problem? He’s distracted by the girl across the hall. Madison comes with her own past, her own secrets... and her own deal. And those deals? They’re ticking time bombs. Ones they didn’t know existed. Tick. Tock.

Chloe has one plan for the future, and one plan only: the road. She’s made a promise to herself: don’t let anyone in, and don’t let anyone love her. She’s learned the hard way what happens if she breaks her rules. So she’s focused on being invisible and waiting until she can set out on the road—her dream of freedom, at least for a little while. Blake Hunter is a basketball star who has it all—everything about him looks perfect to those on the other side of his protective walls. He can’t let anyone see the shattered pieces behind the flawless facade or else all his hopes and dreams will disappear. One dark night throws Chloe and Blake together, changing everything for Blake. For Chloe, nothing changes: she has the road, and she’s focused on it. But when the so-called perfect boy starts to notice the invisible girl, they discover that sometimes with love, no one knows where the road may lead.

An alternate cover edition can be found here. There’s a single defining moment within every skater. It lasts only a second. Two if you're good. Three if you’re really good. It’s the moment you’re in the air, your board somewhere beneath you, and nothing but wind surrounds you. It’s the feeling of being airborne. The sixteen-year-old version of me would’ve said it was the greatest feeling in the world. Then at seventeen, I had my son. And every single second became a defining moment. Even the ones that consisted of heartbreak when his mother left us. Seventeen. Single. Dad. That’s what my life became. Yet, every day, I managed to find that feeling of being airborne. Or at least I convinced myself I did. But I lied—to myself and to everyone around me. Until she showed up; Tanned skin, raven dark hair, and eyes the color of emeralds. You know what sucks about being in the air? Coming down from the high. Sometimes you land on the board and nail the trick. Then kick, push, and coast away. Other times you fall. You fall hard. And those are the times when it’s not as easy to get back up, dust off your pads and try again. Especially when the girl with the emerald eyes becomes your drug... And you become her poison.

Warning: This book contains mildly inappropriate everything. So…I came up with a plan. I sat the brothers down and gave them my speech; we’d become male escorts. The house was split. The single dudes thought it was great. The guys with the steady girlfriends told the single dudes they were insane. I promised them all we could make it work without hurting anybody. But we had to be smart about it. We had to keep it off campus. We had to keep it a secret. And in order to do so, we had to target those who wanted it kept a secret as much as we did. Our target: Filthy rich, unsatisfied, horny housewives. Keep it high class, so to speak. And thus began BTC, or Boy Toy Corporation. Crazy, right? Crazy genius. -Tyler West.