"He’s what’s been missing all along… What I’ve been chasing. Right in front of my fucking face."

Everyone say hello to Mason 'wait you think I'm gorgeous' Wyatt and Jeremy 'I'm fine' Montgomery. Buckle up and let them fucking DESTROY you.

I HAVE NOT CRIED LIKE THIS SINCE MY SISTER DIED AND IM ALREADY PLANNING A REREAD FOR RELEASE DAY.

Ok so the number one thing you need to know about me going into this review is that I am Jeremy Montgomery's number one fan. I have been unhealthily obsessed with that boy for FAR too long now, idk if its the shared dead sister trauma/pearl jam obsession or what, BUT I FUCKING LOVE HIM HE HAS ALLLLWAYS BEEN MY FAV IN THIS UNIVERSE AND HE STILL FUCKING IS. In saying that, I have always been a STAUNCH Mason Wyatt defender and my baby did not fucking let me down here. There are few characters out there who feel as genuinely real and human as these 2.

The first instalment in this duet definitely reads more like a coming of age story than a romance, you get to grow up with them and understand them in a way alot of romances don't allow you to. It's definitely giving "it was always you" vibes and you really do have this feeling of inevitability when you're reading their story. Like they really are 2 stars that were always destined to collide and it was just a matter of when. These 2 are so obsessed with eachother. They're eachothers safe space. They constantly want to be in eachothers orbit even when it destroys them and ya gal is DOWN FUCKING BAD. Seeing them as kids was so fucking beautiful and it just made me wanna drown myself in my tears (affectionate).

This book broke my fucking heart and after 2 years of waiting for it I wouldn't want it any other way. The grief exploration and addiction rep is one of the most special things about this series to me in general but with these two it just hits so much harder. As someone who has lost siblings, Jessie just nailed every aspect of that feeling through Jer and his families eyes. Which brings me to my fav lost boys. Jeremy goes from a chronically anxious terrified little boy to a man able to stand on his own two feet even when it kills him. His journey is definitely one of my favourites of all time, he means even more to me than I thought possible. The way he just keeps growing into himself more and more makes me wanna die. Jer is now on par with Sky for my fav Jessie character ever and if you know me you know HOW FUCKING MUCH I LOVE SKY. As for Mase, even when he's his most broken he loves big and he loves fucking hard and I have to appreciate him for it even when he's a big dumb dumb (members of the trying to do the right thing and fucking it up club unite ✊️). He might be an addict who hurts the people around him when he's off the deep end but if you've ever loved an addict you know how realistic that is. A sober Mase though? Has my whole fucking heart, as I said that boy loves fucking HARDDDDD and he might just love Jeremy the most in his world. This boy is so damn growly and protective and I hate to be that bitch but it turns out I swoon for a damn saviour complex, SUE ME.

I realise this isnt really a review and more me waxing poetic but WHATEVER. They go through it, they grow, they change, they learn and I'm so frigging proud of both of them

Well after waiting two years for Jeremy’s and Mason’s story, it’s safe to say that Every Breath After has completely destroyed me and this is only part one. Let’s just say i’m so glad that Jessie Walker split this book into two parts because i’m not ready for their story to be over. I NEED to know that they will get their happy ending because it’s the only way their story has to end.

Jeremy and Mason’s story is far from your typical romance story. This book is heavy with all the painful moments. It will rip your heart out so keep that in mind before reading their story.

As always, I am speechless at how Jessie Walker and brought this series to life. The lost boys series is something special I think everyone should experience. All of these characters have a story that everyone can relate to and that’s what I think is important and special about this series, you can relate to these characters and their pain if you’ve been through what they’ve been through and felt.

I will always recommend this series to everyone because this series changed my life and i’m so grateful to Jessie Walker because idk who I was before I read this series.

If you want to read Mason and Jeremy’s story you need to read Where There’s a Will to understand everything but don’t worry, you won’t regret it.

And I just want to say thank you to Jessie Walker for not giving up on Jeremy and Mason’s story because they’re beautiful and I will wait for part two patiently like I waited for part one.