I'm a 5'7" Engineering Scientist with bad vision and...other issues, so being picked up at a bar by the fascinating, straightforward brunette was not on my radar. Once I've had a taste of Bex, there's no going back. Except the closer we get, the more terrified I am that she'll run the other direction as soon as she knows about that small part of myself I've never shared with anyone. What if doesn't want me anymore? How can I go back to a life without her?  Our happily ever after? That will take a Hawaiian Christmas miracle. ​​​​​​​The author would like you to know: *if you don't like swearing *if sexy banter isn't your thing *if you prefer angst and dark romance *if you want sex to fade to black, behind closed doors *if you don't think consent is sexy *if you don't like quirky holiday stories *if you're not into emotional growth and adult relationships This might not be the book for you. CW/TW: autistic main character              anxiety rep