You’re supposed to dream about your wedding day. But mine was hell. For one forbidden moment, Theo gave me an escape—seeing me as more than just a pawn, offering a final wish to help me endure. Then my life with Rafe, my captor and monster, began. To him, I’m nothing but a vessel to break. Pain consumes me, but I remember Theo’s touch, the promise in his eyes, the life I could have had. He’s out there, trapped by the memory of me, just as I am haunted by him. My savior. The only man who ever cared. I pray he’ll find me, save me, and bring me back to that moment before the darkness swallowed me whole. To Have and to Hold is a full-length taboo novel with pitch black themes.