on my fourth re-read. i constantly lend my copy to all of my friends convincing them to read it, too, and now it's my turn again. i can't even explain how much this book impacted me. it genuinely feels like clutching your pearls the entire book start to finish and i had to just stare at the wall for a while the first time i finished it. i have an entire spotify playlist i made for it. dathan auerbach the man u are. AHHHHH