this is probably the best teen book I've read in a very long time and i read a lot of YA/teen/coming-of-age books. it wasn't an easy listen-- as the subject matter was very relatable and heavy-- but i couldn't stop rooting for Cesar and his recovery no matter what choices he made. the author did an incredible job of showing us an authentic portrayal of Cesar's struggles with bipolar and his continuous attempts to isolate and self harm while still giving us an interesting, funny, and genuinely beautiful story. the audiobook was also great--the narrator captured Cesar's voice and personality so well and i was super impressed with the emotional range they brought to the audiobook.