so.

this is definitely a love or hate book.

i decided this was gonna be a hate-read halfway through the book.

i understand. “the characters are meant to be unlikable”. “it’s not meant to be eventful”. i’ve heard all the arguments about why this is such a “profound, hilarious, ground-breaking” read. i saw someone say that if you like the book, it’s because a part of you relates to the main character; i agree.

no spoilers: it’s essentially a rich, skinny, pretty, white girl (i Know she declares her various privileges various times….. Anyway.) being incredibly self-indulgent, selfish, rude and annoying (again, i know she’s not supposed to be likable but that’s besides the point) for a whole year. that’s it. that’s the whole book.

also ? so many people say this book is “hilarious”. it really isn’t…. are we reading the same book??

i gave it 2 stars solely for the horribly accurate depiction of depressive episodes, trauma and anxiety. as someone who suffers from mental illness, i too wish i were privileged enough to quit everything and rest whenever i pleased lol - that’s the only small part i can relate to, certainly won’t run myself into the ground over it though. i caught myself rolling my eyes, sighing and thinking “if this white girl doesn’t just get up and get it together already …..” multiple times as i read.

this one is definitely for the gaslight & gatekeep, a24 movies, lily rose depp, “my dream is to live in new york” girlies.

i have homesick for another world on my reading list so i’ll give that a try but i’m not holding my breath for anything amazing lmao