So, I’m a member of the Aardvark Book Club box, and this month they have the entire Tainted Cup series by Robert Jackson Bennett available in special editions - because of the way Aardvark is structured, this means it would only cost $40 for all 3 hardcovers, which is pretty sweet.
BUT - I already have the first one has a paperback, and I haven’t read it yet.
How good is this series? Should I go for it and sell them on eBay later if I don’t like them?
Any thoughts appreciated.
They also have another of my anticipated releases, Barbara Truelove’s new book: She’s A Doll . I loved Of Monsters and Mainframes so I’m excited to read her new book.
So…I suck at making choices - but I have heard amazing things about The Tainted Cup series, and as a mystery and fantasy lover it seems right up my alley. Anyways thanks for reading😄💜

Most of the people I regularly chat with and have some camaraderie with are here. I found them here, so I kinda need to post this here, so I am, nervously.

I am realizing I may not be as male as I always thought I am.

This is not directly related to books, but it seems they have played a not insignificant role in this.

I have been asking other queers, and apparently,

"never read a single romance all my life but now for the past 3.5 years have read nothing except sapphic romances" , "couldn't bear to read anything with primarily cis-het relationships" , "the more sapphic romances I read the more I wish I was a lesbian" ,

are big flags that things may not be as straight as I thought they are.

The more I read those romances, the more I ached for the company of lesbians, and eventually, by happenstance an opportunity landed in my lap and I wasn't expecting anything but for several days I was among queer people and I had never felt so relaxed and accepted and comfortable in my life and I have rarely befriended people this easily.

I blurted out all this to some of them at a party and they said, "Yeah, we were picking up on your queer vibes". And I was dumbfounded, like, I have queer vibes??? Apparently the more I interacted with them over several days, the stronger my 'queer vibes' became.

I am suddenly feeling so relaxed all the time, and the constant undercurrent of unwarranted fear that has constantly played in my mind's background has suddenly ameliorated.

Somehow, over 3.5 years, the books precipitated all this, and the safe space in this community where I could unreservedly like and discuss all the queer erotica and raunchy stuff and realizing how much more I enjoyed that over discussing cis-het erotica played a big role in helping me express myself.

I am confused but mostly excited and what the hell is going on...

There are too many people here, worrying at the mortar of my boundaries, wearing me thin.

This is how im telling people im ready to go home from now on.