so many people have talked about this series that i just had to give it a go but... i'm kinda confused ngl. obviously this is a long series so i know there are things that will probably be developed later, and i wasn't expecting this book to give me all the answers but the relationship between our main characters??? a bit weird to me... at first it was giving slow burn and then suddenly they're willing to die for each other and blindly trust on each other??? 😭 it was good and i had a good time reading it but i'm still debating wether i'll continue with the series 👀

i honestly had such a hard time reading this book... idk if all of Camus' books are like this or if his writing style changes/evolves from book to book but i just couldn't connect with the story at all 😭 and i know that's probably a me problem bc this is a classic (and there's always a reason a book gets that status) but this one was just not for me. i'm still trying to figure out what the point of this book even was... 😭

it's good but i think this could have been shorter, a lot of the poems just repeat the same idea, theme, and sometimes even the same words...

fav: "your eyes didn't ask for permission they took everything they wanted and left me fighting with myself to decide if i would surrender or resist"

brilliant. fantastic. genius.

fav quote: "She remembered that she had been starved of her proper due of experience-she had been made to stagnate in a personage mending stockings when she wanted to wander free over the world. [...] We feel the influence of fear in it; just as we constantly feel and acidity which is the result of oppression, a buried suffering smouldering beneath her passion, a rancour which contracts those books, splendid as they are with a spams of pain."