Does anyone else have this insane urge to read while at work and then as soon as you get home it's gone? Every now and then i'll get this insane urge to read at work where i'll be actively planing out my reading time for when i get home, going through my tbr and genuinely feel so giddy and excited for my booooks...and then i get home and the excitement is gone? Is this just part of the slump? Does this happen to anyone else? Like you fantasize about reading while stuck at work and as soon as you have actual time to read you do something else instead?

My goal for the year is small but i find myself behind and in a slump but at the same time i'm excited to pick up the next book that comes along.

I keep thinking I have a system for my reading life.

Like I’m in control. Like there’s a plan. Like my TBR is something I can actually manage instead of something quietly plotting against me.

But at this point, I think I’ve been demoted from “reader” to “queue manager with unstable feelings.”

Because here’s what’s happening right now:

I just started the final book in a trilogy, which should mean focus, emotional endurance, and a respectful amount of suffering in a controlled direction. And I have 3 library holds that all decided to show up at the same time, plus a book club read. 😩

I’m in full blown

And the funny part is I still act like I’m going to “get through the list” someday, but the list is not stable. It multiplies. It shifts. It regenerates when I’m not looking. It’s like magic.

The real issue is that I have too many books that all feel slightly urgent at the same time. Like everything is saying “read me next” with varying levels of emotional manipulation. Stop being pick me’s damn it!!

So I guess I’m wondering: does anyone actually solve the queue problem… or do we all just live here now, constantly negotiating with ourselves while three different stories are open in our brains at once?

Commiserate with me on my favorite problem to have!!

I keep thinking I have a system for my reading life.

Like I’m in control. Like there’s a plan. Like my TBR is something I can actually manage instead of something quietly plotting against me.

But at this point, I think I’ve been demoted from “reader” to “queue manager with unstable feelings.”

Because here’s what’s happening right now:

I just started the final book in a trilogy, which should mean focus, emotional endurance, and a respectful amount of suffering in a controlled direction. And I have 3 library holds that all decided to show up at the same time, plus a book club read. 😩

I’m in full blown

And the funny part is I still act like I’m going to “get through the list” someday, but the list is not stable. It multiplies. It shifts. It regenerates when I’m not looking. It’s like magic.

The real issue is that I have too many books that all feel slightly urgent at the same time. Like everything is saying “read me next” with varying levels of emotional manipulation. Stop being pick me’s damn it!!

So I guess I’m wondering: does anyone actually solve the queue problem… or do we all just live here now, constantly negotiating with ourselves while three different stories are open in our brains at once?

Commiserate with me on my favorite problem to have!!