this one hits close to home for me too. i LOVE the way this one is formatted, it feels like it reflects the fact that healing isn’t linear and clawing your way out of the darkness means carving an uneven path. i think the indented stanzas are a window into escaping the darkness, into what finding light and healing can be like, especially when they talk about the sun, sunbathing, and screaming. death as infinity allows space to almost understand the unending relief that death provides for some, while also reflecting on how dying doesn’t really mean you’re gone. you leave an indelible mark on the people who will remember you, while you stretch into infinity. being a grief astronomer means charting a path through the darkness. it means using sadness as a path and map back to the light, while not forgetting the journey. it means keeping the truths you learn as muddle through close to your heart, and it also means lending support to those who don’t yet know a way through. i think the stanza that will always stay with me is: Come flood my home with your eyes. I read that people scream when they are in pain because screaming actually lessens the pain— anyone who asks you to hold your tongue is asking you to hold the heaviest thing in the galaxy.