This book defeated me. I'm an empty shell, my soul has gone to my maker, it was nice knowing everybody. I'll recover maybe in a week. This has the pace I love, if people complain about slowness it's probably for me, the introspection and most intimate knowledge of characters can only be obtained by living through everything with them; the danger being that ... I can't think or feel. (Maybe this is a case of sleepless night because of this book and then a full day of study and finishing this on book between breaks and on the road home and not enough food and that damned ending TT) I don't know how to explain, the writing first off. Then the characters. The perfect balance of doom and gloom and light. Next book more light. Perfect balance between killed and living. Not too big a cast so easy to follow. Such a, how to say, warm, introspective, engaging, contemplative story - very much loved the way she decided to present the story, with the voice of a Fitz that looks back and through that the experience of seeing what he felt then and added knowledge and revelations of the future. Written just for me. Something that I have to discuss with poeple in person. I was glad that some things I could forsee and others surprised me and I didn't completely feel like a log head. I expected to need a month but this took over my life to the detriment of my grades, shame, and it read so flawlessly and quickly; I attribute this to the limited size of the cast - in some moments I thought one or two new chatacters could have been introduced to add more factors and complicate the web of intricacy even more but I'm satisfied in the end. So many feelings I felt! I don't know if I loved this so much because fantasy is new to me or if it is just that great. I connected so fast to the characters, I cannot tell why. Next book, please let Fitz gain some life long friends, real friends! Just, that epilogue swerved my mood right down the gutter.

All in all I felt: 🥹

Reading tracklist: 40. Yıl - Barış Manço Vocalise Op. 34 No. 14 - Rachmaninoff