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The King in Yellow
Robert W. Chambers
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Thoughts and analysis of some recurring themes of the first part of The Stranger (itâs mostly about Meursaultâs character, his personnality and behavior) :
Socialization I saw some people argue that Meursault doesnât understand social cues/codes but I think thatâs â at least partially â untrue. He is, by nature, very observant and able to understand subtext or even body langage; he just chooses to not follow social norms* because he find them absurd and doesnât grant them any importance. What he lacks is social hypocrisy; when he and Marie witness Raymond beating a woman, they both do nothing and protect him but Marie said it was "awful" while the narrator just tells us he doesnât care and act accordingly. He says what he thinks, and lets life carry him along to relieve his boredom.
*this is only partially true, he kinda forces himself to do small talk with the hospiceâs director, engages with his neighbors, etc. Even if he pretends he doesnât care, he want people to like him.
Emotions Itâs made very clear throughout that first part that Meursault is very detached from his emotions, selfish, and self-centered.
He (obviously) has emotions but is only capable of identifying the concrete effects they have on him (ex: he "wants" Marie, likes when she laughs, and misses her but is unable to understand that its because he loves her.) He doesnât identify the emotion or its origin and only acknowledges the resulting "needs". (reaction VS emotion/sensation)
This attitude is also present during the moments of intimacy between him and Marie. He always explain what this or that act do to him and never think about/try to please his partner (ex: when he tells her they will eat dinner together, he never asks Marie what she wants.) The only moments when he tries to be pleasant with another person and helps them fulfill their "needs" is when heâs interracting with men (ex: Raymond), whereas he completely disregards womenâs emotions or stories.
Morality and Neutrality Empathy and sympathy are different concepts; you donât have to understand someoneâs emotions to choose to care about what theyâre going through and make the moral choice of standing with the oppressed. Meursault, under the cover of "neutrality", positions himself repeatedly on the side of immorality and violence (cf. his whole thing with Raymond). To me, the first time Meursault quit his "passive" stance is not the murder, itâs when he actively helps Raymond to lure a woman into a violent trap, and when he lies to the authorities to protect his neighbor.
The first cycle of Camusâ philosophy is the realization of the Absurd*: the world has no meaning and you have to be lucid about it. The thing is, that realization must be followed by the acceptance of the worldâs absurdity but also by the refusal of passivity and a figh for human dignity. Itâs the second cycle, the Revolt (book example: The Pest, Camus). The third cycle is Love; finding a middle ground, a way to reconciliate the tensions of the Absurd (quest for meaning) and the Revolt (quest for justice). But Meursault seems unable to move past the stage of his initial realization and locks himself into absurdism without really understanting it because he hasnât accepted, embraced that realization â it probably will happen in the second part of the novel.
So, if thereâs no meaning to anything then thereâs no reason or need to question your behavior â or even just look inward and interrogate yourself â and thats where resides the only explanation/justification for his lack of morale; Meursault is privileged. He is a colon, a white man**, and the world doesnât give him any reason to revolt because he is not personnally suffering.
*at some point, Meursault alludes to having this realization â which he mainly identifies as the loss of his ambition â after he had to abandon his studies. **let me translate: Meursault is a racist, misogynist, upper-middle class, sometimes fatphobic, piece of crap.
About the Asperger/low-support need autism theory I donât think Meursault is autistic. I agree with the fact that he sometimes presents autistic traits (bluntness, difficulty to identify his emotions, ignore social cues, etc.) and that this is probably due to Camus being inspired by one of his friendsâ behavior, and that thereâs now a consensus about that man being on the spectrum. However, there was no diagnosis for autism in 1942 and Camus likely based Meursault on this friend of his because he was "odd". It was not Camusâ intention to portray an autistic man, Meursault is simply the embodiment of the first cycle of the philosophy of the absurd.
Also, Meursault mostly understand social cues/norms and body langage, the brief moment he mentions sensory issues it is very normal stuff (not liking the texture of the wet towel at work, being inconvenienced by the heat, etc.), he doesnât stim (except if you count his obsessive smoking), has no specific or strong interest, presents a distinct lack of curiosity about anything, etc.
Some people have suggested that antisocial personnality disorder may be a more appropriate diagnosis for him, but honestly I think trying to justify his behavior medically, trying to find a meaning when the whole point of the book is demonstrating there is none, may be a bit counterproductive.
About the sun The sun is omnipresent and almost his own character; to me, its a physical and metaphorical metaphor of the oppressive nature of the world/life/society, absurdism, and fatality*. It is mentionned when Meursault experiences intense emotions but is unable to identify them (grief, love, anger, etc.), because of that, he attributes his unease to the sun/the heat, something physical and concrete.
*chap 1, Meursault and the nurse talk about the sun and the consequences it will have on their health during the funeral, and Meursault observes that "there is no way out.", he canât escape this worldâs system an will suffer just and unjust consequences for his actions.
Hope the English was okay. If you read all that, thank you.
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Vampires being one of my special interests, it's strange that I haven't read many books about them (I mostly watch movies), and I'm very glad that I started this bloody reading journey with Carmilla.
I was charmed by the poetic description of ruins and forests basked in moonlight, the writing style, Laura's foggy nightmares, and of course, by Carmilla herself.
This novel is mostly known as a sapphic vampire story, and while there definitely is some vibes between Carmilla and Laura, really the story plays on the "predatory lesbian" trope. Sadly for the author, it doesn't make the relationship between the two main characters less queer, appealing, or sexy.
I can't wait to read some of the many queer retellings of the story and watch the (less queer) movies it inspired. I was also informed of the existence of a webseries that I'm gonna start without delay â¨đ
P.S: the book was written in the 19th century so obviously be prepared for it to sometimes be sexist, racist, classist, etc.
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Carmilla
J. Sheridan Le Fanu
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[...] there were no tidings of Carmilla. Of the scene that had occurred in the ruined chapel, no explanation was offered to me, and it was clear that it was a secret which my father for the present determined to keep from me.
Okay, here comes one of my main issues with this book: Laura is utterly stupid.
I made some jokes about it, but in all seriousness, I find it astonishing that (apparently) the idea of a woman displaying the tiniest bit of logicality and rationality was absolutely inconceivable for the author/the victorian society - even tho at that time women pioneered a lot of social, technological, medical innovations.
At times, we might argue that Laura doesn't understand the situation because her father keeps her in the dark (cf. the consultation with the doctor) and due to lack of informations that she couldn't obtain herself (in the case of the chosen example: a medical opinion) she is unable to reach the correct conclusions.
But, most of the time Laura doesn't even TRY to reach any conclusion/make any deduction. She just let herself be carried around by men and never tries to exercise her free will and completely lacks agency, even when her survival is at stakes.
Even if she's young, sheltered, naive, or whatever, I think she should be able to understand this situation (cf. quote up above) thanks to the extensive amount of informations the General shared.
I find the characterization of Laura a bit strange, given that Le Fanu associated with a good number of artists and activists of his time*, and some of same were * gasp * women.
*I just made a quick online search so I don't really have names, I'd need to look a bit deeper into that.
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The thing is, I kinda always feel like a giant, clumsy bug walking around trying to understand how to make people like me.
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