rated 4.75 on storygraph

once upon a time when nezuu was a wee little lad, they came across the internet shitholes that are reddit, 4chan, and pre-elon musk twitter (not that elon helped anything, really), and accidentally stumbled into one too many a thread featuring uncensored gore, explicit sexual content, and a cluster fuck of users confessing to their deepest darkest crimes and getting into fights on the internet attempting to "expose" one another.

anyone who's been on the internet at least as long as i have knows exactly the vibe i'm talking about. the kind of drama that has you sitting there scrolling for hours and hours through multiple threads, trying to get the full scoop on things. the kind of drama that starts off relatively normal but devolves so deeply that you're left questioning if you've just borne witness to a real crime, or if it's just a whole bunch of internet trolls who've capitalized on the opportunity to lie on the internet for no reason beyond attention-seeking and sensationalizing.

cooper takes this reality of the internet (and users' willingness to engage in this behavior, even as lurkers) as the basis for this book, and in the process dives into so many of the base issues of engaging with online content in our day and age: toxicity, performativity, masculinity and the toxic adherence to patriarchal standards, the difference between what is reality and what is fantasy (and people's lack of ability to distinguish between the two), the desire for internet "clout" even if it's based on lies and dramatization, and the extent to which people are willing to go in the name of ending out on top in the competition to become a celebrity online.

every motherfucker in this book is a liar. every single last one of them. they all participate in drama threads that are reviews and forum posts about a male escort named "brad", and every single one of them, at some point or the other, admits to lying and making things up for the internet fame points of having had sex with celebrity escort "brad". the fantasy of brad mimics the way drama typically unfolds on the internet, starting off very tame and normal, then devolving over time into extreme, explicit gore, rape, and dehumanization. and yet, not a single one of them steps away because of the now parasocial relationship they all have in their heads of themselves and brad.

what does it say, then, that as a reader, i too stuck through the entire book without stepping away? what does it say about me that i did entirely buy in to what i was reading, and i started trying to put together the pieces just like all the characters in the story itself? by making this read like an online thread, cooper makes us as readers bystanders and complicit in the sensationalization of brad. granted, we get more meta through our access to recordings of private calls, private faxes and emails, etc. so you could argue we're not the same as the bumbling idiots that have no reliable information but continue to engage with it regardless. we're made to feel like we have the insider scoop on it all but do we really?

i think that this book gives us as readers a lot to chew/ruminate on in terms of internet culture, our positionality and role within it, and the normalization and desensitization to extreme violence that comes with internet engagement. i could not recommend this book hard enough, but please do be warned that this is extreme horror, so please check CWs/TWs before deciding to engage!

I feel very divided when it comes to how I enjoyed this book. I loveeedddd loved loved Beth and Devon and their romance, the intense yearning between them, the longing looks and light touches, they way they both wanted the other but wouldn’t allow themselves to admit it, how they were all the other could think about when they weren’t together, and I also adored how that was translated into the writing, it was unserious and witty and fun.

But it was also so repetitive and sometimes boring to read the in betweens. There was a lot of will they won’t they push and pull between them, they kept getting interrupted when they’re almost about to kiss and once or twice is cute, but it happens way too much that it starts to become annoying. I also just did not care for the plot besides the romance.