If at any point I thought I had the mystery figured out I was immediately proven wrong. 😅

It's honestly her best book (of all of the ones I've read), she worked a lot to improve her characters and it shows

A book about love, passion, desire, queerness and gender, Mrs. S explores the different aspect of queer identity while involving you in a burning love story.

The longing between the narrator and Mrs. S is very subtle and that characteristic shows the forbidden nature of it. We slowly get to know the narrator’s feelings with the way she interacts with Mrs. S, getting to know her inner thoughts and not only how she views Mrs. S, but how she views the way Mrs. S looks at her. There’s so much yearning between them, soft moments with a much bigger meaning, glances and touches that burn with desire, a sexual attraction that grows with intensity the more the two characters interact.

A surprising part of this book, and probably my favorite, was how well it approached gender and (not) feeling at home in your body. Looking at someone and wishing to be like them, to feel as comfortable as they seem to be, all that while still wanting to be noticed. To want to change how you look while still wanting someone to look at you.

I’m still not sure how to feel about the prose in this book. It takes some getting used to, but it does gets to a point where it becomes easier to understand who’s talking and how the narrator differentiates between dialogue and her own thoughts. The 1st person pov together with the almost dreamlike dialogue, the absence of quotation marks and dialogue tags makes the connection with the narrator much more personal, almost like we’re stepping into the main characters’ shoes and experiencing their story.

But the most important message of this book: don’t let your husband stop you from finding the butch of your life.