so we can already see that Waldo uses escapism and dissociation to avoid her feelings and thoughts. sex is an obligation she uses to feel something without much risk, something she can turn to for a quick hit and distraction. then in her mind doomscrolling and impulse shopping plays the same role

"My heart races as I scroll down to that bold, red, looming "place order" button. I click it, and a combination of regret and excitement flushes through my body, a combination so potent that it leaves no space for whatever feeling lurks underneath it."

curious to see how this will play out later in the story, i have a feeling things are going to get unhinged in a toxic, uncomfortable way quick af. what's super interesting to me is her narrative seems to almost be like, cynical, satirical? like she understands exactly what she's doing, she knows that it's unhealthy, but she does it anyway. says soo much about her character in such an understated way

"The cancer warning comes up on all the items, which I appreciate, because it helps me prioritize my cart. Velvet trousers? Not worth the cancer. Crop top? It stays."

it's also almost like all of her habits are about having no agency as well. everything happens to her, she doesn't have to think, doesn't have to make a choice, doesn't have to reflect. the algorithm delivers her content, she takes whatever it gives her. the cart warns her about cancer, she accepts it with banality. a boy has sex with her, she lets it happen until it's over