It's easy to get swept into this book and along with it; it is at core a compelling character study of a woman, and her want, and the relationship between herself and her want. I liked the exploration of lesbianism and masculinity and chosen family and the narrator's transformation as she takes possession of herself. The narrative style is one I really enjoy, I found it to be reminiscent of Intermezzo, very blunt and no quotations to be found. That said, all the conditions should have been perfect for me to feel deeply invested, and yet I struggled with feeling a bit at arms length from the characters. I just wasn't feeling personally moved by the story, as much as I was just a witness to it. I had a lot of misgivings with the central relationship which made me pretty unenthusiastic through the entire first half, after that point things improved (especially because of the featured friendship moreso than the romantic relationship) but I still just found myself always wanting something more and feeling like I was turning pages never quite getting what I was looking for. Still, a really good book to read and reflect on your own queerness and gender and desire and selfhood, and I think it could land incredibly well for others who find themselves at a point in their lives where they relate to the narrator more.