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pagesandleaves

hi☺️ my name is phili (she/her) and I am a whimsy obsessed illustrator ! I love talking about books and have an attachment to exclamation marks!!!

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This is How You Lose the Time War
A Girl Like Her (Ravenswood, #1)
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The Missed Connection
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If an Egyptian Cannot Speak English
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My Year of Rest and Relaxation
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Small Fires: An Epic in the Kitchen
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Empire of Pain: The Secret History of the Sackler Dynasty
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  • Book Guilt

    Does anyone else feel guilty when buying a special edition book that they haven't read yet? If so, how do you move past it?

    I've had my Fairyloot subscription for a few months now, and I love getting the monthly book and looking at the beautiful artwork, but after that, I feel this sick guilt in my stomach.

    I should've prefaced this by saying that I've always had a "harder" time buying books. Even ones that I want, because I'm not a rereader, so those books will just live on my shelves forever. I think it's a cross between that and "ugh, I've wasted money that I could've used on something else". Yet, I want to own them. I love looking at my bookcase and seeing these stories...

    90% of the books I own, I've bought after I read them because I loved them. A lot come from used bookstores, so I haven't thrown thousands of dollars at this hobby, and yet, the guilt is there. I wish it would go away.

    Now, that I'm getting special editions for books that I haven't read yet... and I'm spending $40 a month on things I could hate... that pit in my stomach grows every time, and I want it to go away 😭😭

    Please tell me this isn't an original experience... I don't want to feel like this. I just want to be able to look at these books and love them. Not feel guilty and like I'm throwing my money away.

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