Has this ever happened to anyone?

I mean, Pride Month is coming to an end, and this month I decided that I wanted to read a lot more books with lesbian or bisexual women as the main characters. And I kind of succeeded. I read around seven or eight new books, but my goal was 12. What I realized—and I don't know why I'm surprised—is that if I give myself a list of books to read, if I make a plan, my brain immediately wants to rebel. It just goes into this reading slump where it's like, "Okay, now I don't want to read any of them."

Because tell me why I picked up some of the most beautiful books, and it felt like such a chore to get through them. There was nothing wrong with the books. My brain was just like, "No. You made a plan. You forced me. Now I'm not going to read them." In my head, I thought it would take me maybe two or three days to finish each book. Instead, it was taking me weeks to get through a single one, even though I was enjoying it.

I think my brain just likes randomly picking books from my reading list instead of following a plan of what I should read. I don't know if this happens to anyone else, but it definitely happens to me. The moment I make a reading plan, my brain just goes, "Nope."

But yeah, I still achieved some of my goals, so that was nice. I think I'm just going to keep the rest of the books from this month's plan on my main reading list and pick them up whenever I feel like it instead of forcing myself. I also think this weird rebellion from my brain probably affected some of my reviews. I might have rated a few books lower than they deserved, just because I wasn't in the right headspace while reading them.

But I really enjoyed the whole process. So yeah, tell me if this happens to anyone else?