Do I really need to read Caraval before Once Upon a Broken Heart? I’ve already started OUABH—will not reading Caraval first affect my understanding or make me miss anything?

Does anyone else feel guilty when buying a special edition book that they haven't read yet? If so, how do you move past it?

I've had my Fairyloot subscription for a few months now, and I love getting the monthly book and looking at the beautiful artwork, but after that, I feel this sick guilt in my stomach.

I should've prefaced this by saying that I've always had a "harder" time buying books. Even ones that I want, because I'm not a rereader, so those books will just live on my shelves forever. I think it's a cross between that and "ugh, I've wasted money that I could've used on something else". Yet, I want to own them. I love looking at my bookcase and seeing these stories...

90% of the books I own, I've bought after I read them because I loved them. A lot come from used bookstores, so I haven't thrown thousands of dollars at this hobby, and yet, the guilt is there. I wish it would go away.

Now, that I'm getting special editions for books that I haven't read yet... and I'm spending $40 a month on things I could hate... that pit in my stomach grows every time, and I want it to go away 😭😭

Please tell me this isn't an original experience... I don't want to feel like this. I just want to be able to look at these books and love them. Not feel guilty and like I'm throwing my money away.