i'm starting to hit some roadblocks that i was hoping to avoid. at first it seemed like a nice yet tense book, with a rich world and well-written characters, but this is just too much. there's way too much happening all at once. it's bad circumstance after bad circumstance, after bad circumstance. there's never a time to catch a break, to pause, to relax a little, to spend some time with the characters without having every single nerve on edge. it's a little exhausting to turn the page and wonder "what horrible caveat will we have to bear this time?". it would be nice if we could pause a little and have some fun, but it seems like every single conversation and every single scene needs to be full of tension and danger. it's making me feel hopeless but in a counterintuitive way; it's like the characters developing and the plot advancing is impractical. i can respect the messaging and the well structured plot, but i cant appreciate that tracy deonn fills the book with so much tension at every interval. either she doesnt trust that her main conflict is interesting so she keeps adding little sub-conflicts, or this is purposeful but very exhausting.

I’m clutching my damn pearls after chapter 20-

This is such an interesting book to read during the current time in America - Letty SPECIFICALLY

I don’t know whether I started this book at the perfect or worst time considering what is happening in the USA right now.

It’s scary how in 55 pages I can already see resemblances with the current situation there. And reflecting how this cycle of despair is so much further away in the Netherlands just because of social systems. It makes me realise how terrified I am of the USA and for Americans

I’m hoping and expecting to like this book but right now I feel really confused? I don’t understand what happened at the Quarry. I know I’m not supposed to fully understand but I like REALLY don’t understand. 😅😂

Hey guys, I am planning a semester in New England and I would love vibey book recs! Also if anyone has any suggestions on what to do while I’m there I’d also appreciate that😻

PS: love the secret history and dead poets society so would love more ideas in that realm!!