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You Wanna Be on Top?: A Memoir of Makeovers, Manipulation, and Not Becoming America's Next Top Model

You Wanna Be on Top?: A Memoir of Makeovers, Manipulation, and Not Becoming America's Next Top Model

Sarah Hartshorne

In this revealing memoir, a fan favorite America’s Next Top Model contestant pulls back the curtain on the iconic but deeply flawed reality competition show, exposing the manipulation and chaos behind the scenes.Tyra Banks’s America’s Next Top Model was a cultural phenomenon with over six million weekly viewers at its peak. Over its fifteen-year run, the show captured the glitz of the early aughts as well as its most toxic attitudes—from the glamorous but often questionable photo shoots to the cutting feedback from its highly respected if out-of-touch judges. Watching ANTM now, it feels impossible to imagine a show like this airing today, and as its fans have grown up, they’ve also begun to reckon with the enduring ways that the show has affected their body image and self-esteem.Sarah Hartshorne would have never guessed that her first foray into modeling would start with being blindfolded alongside three dozen other girls on a charter bus winding through Puerto Rico. In You Wanna Be On Top?, Cycle 9’s only plus-size contestant takes us into the heart of the unforgiving auditions; the labyrinthian cruise ship the girls weren’t allowed to enjoy; and, of course, the L.A. “Model House” teeming with hidden cameras and elaborately constructed tensions. As the season unfolds and the producers’ interview questions about her weight and her opinions of the other girls become increasingly pointed, Hartshorne uncovers the destabilizing methods employed to film “reality.”Drawing on her experience as well as interviews with other contestants and production crew, Hartshorne answers the questions you always wanted to Why didn’t the house have a microwave or a dishwasher? Why did girls regularly faint during eliminations? Which judge was the meanest off-camera? Why is it that the girls had their most meaningful conversations in closets? ( It was the one place camera crews couldn’t fit.)With tender honesty and sharp wit, Hartshorne dissects the iconic show with an unflinching gaze that refuses to smize.

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Smilepal commented...

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lol you bet! Relieved this isn’t a 5-6 book quest 😂💀

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Smilepal commented...

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Aaaa congrats!! Did you have any favorites? 😻✨

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Smilepal commented...

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I updated it in my comment too just in case! Thanks for bringing that to my attention 🩷🩷

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    Glad to hear you liked this one!! Fantastic review as well 🩷—Yeah I’d totally recommend Empire of Pain too by him, equally gripping 👀✨

  • Say Nothing: A True Story of Murder and Memory in Northern Ireland
    Sep 13, 2026
    Say Nothing: A True Story of Murder and Memory in Northern IrelandPatrick Radden Keefe
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    "But I think the violence isn't just a moral thing. It's not just a moral choice at this stage. It's a kind of reflex, and there's a great deal of establishment violence, as well."

    I went into this book basically not knowing anything about the Troubles and I came out of it fully supporting the IRA. I'm not sure if Keefe wanted to write a pro-IRA book, but that is essentially what it read as to me, and while the later parts of the book detailed the ways in which the IRA perhaps became twisted from its original aims, the fact remains that to me, the IRA did what they did because of what the British started. When you have a majority colonizing force that is armed and violent, what other option do you have to get the them off your soil? Is there really another option, especially when they use violence against you and ignore your peaceful protests? I truly don't think the Sinn Féin party could have achieved the political success and prominence in politics that it did after the Troubles without the Provos IRA paving the way by forcing the British to take their aims (somewhat) seriously.

    This book was well-researched, well-written, and never boring. There were twists and turns to the point where I would occasionally forget that this was actually a nonfiction book, because some of the things that happened, especially after the Good Friday Agreement, seemed to come right out of a political thriller (also fuck Gerry Adams!!) I feel like Keefe really dove into this topic and was able to draw from a variety of sources, including some of the oral history and recordings or transcripts that he did have access to, so we were able to read quotes straight from the sources of people who had been intimately involved with the IRA, like Dolours Price and Brendan Hughes.

    I was shocked (but not surprised, let's be real) at the amount of crimes that the British state essentially got away from in the years before and during the Troubles, including state-sanctioned assassinations and situations where people who committed crimes during that period were just never prosecuted. Of course, when the oppressed rise up with violence, it’s always decried as “terrorism.” When the government does it, it’s always “self-defense” and “justified.” However, I was not shocked by certain people's attempts to rewrite history, particularly to paint the IRA negatively after the unification of Ireland actually began to be a talking point that people took seriously. The way that Price, Hughes, and other ex-IRA members were discarded and struggled with PTSD, alcoholism, and more made me think of the veterans who went through the exact same thing—and it really was the exact same thing, because they were basically in a war throughout their teens and early 20s, but without government (from the Sinn Féin party) recognition of what they had gone through or support to manage the fallout. Instead, it was all about how to appear squeaky-clean in the eyes of the press by denying, denying, denying.

    I will say though, that I did not come away from this book with sympathy for the abduction and murder of Jean McConville, which is one of the stories that this book is woven around. At least one reason for that is because I felt so much sympathy for Price and Hughes, and they both stated that she was an informant for the British state. The book stated that more ex-IRA and supporters were prosecuted for their crimes than loyalists and British supporters, and it feels like this was another situation where the official powers spent a lot of time trying to bring her murderers to bring more ex-IRA people to "justice" when the British 1) started it and 2) did the same and worse to people.

    Anyway, my own leanings and opinions aside, I would highly recommend this book to anyone interested in learning about the Troubles, the players who were intimately involved, and the subsequent political fallout after the peace talks and Good Friday Agreement. This book goes into both an overarching picture and the small details and events that happened throughout the many decades of upheaval with thorough research and engaging writing. I know that I, for one, will definitely be seeking out Keefe's other books, because with this one book, he has definitely established himself as a non-fiction great!

    [tw: Alcoholism, child abuse, eating disorders, gun violence, murder, pedophilia, sexual assault torture, war]

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    Oh so many—I rarely dnf because I get super stubborn about badges but at least it leads to some really cathartic .5 and 1 star reviews lol. The most recent for me was the Blade Itself—sooo misogynistic and racist 😬💀 I’d almost rather take a terrible book over a really boring three star read though, because at least I’m feeling some sort of way (even if it’s “consumed with hate” 😂😂)

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    I was wondering because I'm thinking of some books I've read over the last few years. Books I absolutely hated but I couldn't DNF them because I, personally, wanted to see how bad it would get. But there could be different reasons for finishing a book you disliked. So I wanted to know if you have PFs? And what made it painful for you?

    I'll go first. For me it was definitely

    A Stage set for villains: Terrible world building and I was left with more questions than answers.

    The love Hypothesis: Not. Enough. STEM. What do you mean this a stem romance.

    My vampire plus one: The most ridiculous vampire novel I'd ever read. And I've read Twilight.

    Fourth wing: y'all there are better dragon riding novels out there. Trust me.

    What about you guys? Lowkey PageBound should have an option for "Painfully finished".

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    This place is so cool! The tretter collection at the University of Minnesota also has some really good resources as well 😻

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    I’ve been meaning to check this one out!

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    The House of My Mother: A Daughter's Quest for Freedom

    The House of My Mother: A Daughter's Quest for Freedom

    Shari Franke

    From eldest daughter Shari Franke, the shocking true story behind the viral 8 Passengers family vlog and the hidden abuse she suffered at the hands of her mother, and how, in the face of unimaginable pain, she found freedom and healing. Shari Franke’s childhood was a constant battle for survival. Her mother, Ruby Franke, enforced a severe moral code while maintaining a façade of a picture-perfect family for their wildly popular YouTube channel 8 Passengers, which documented the day-to-day life of raising six children for a staggering 2.5 million subscribers. But a darker truth lurked beneath the surface—Ruby’s wholesome online persona masked a more tyrannical parenting style than anyone could have imagined. As the family’s YouTube notoriety grew, so too did Ruby’s delusions of righteousness. Fueled by the sadistic influence of relationship coach Jodi Hildebrandt, together they implemented an inhumane and merciless disciplinary regime. Ruby and Jodi were arrested in Utah in 2023 on multiple charges of aggravated child abuse. On that fateful day, Shari shared a photo online of a police car outside their home. Her caption had one word: “Finally.” For the first time, Shari will reveal the disturbing truth behind 8 Passengers and her family’s devastating involvement with Jodi Hildebrandt’s cultish life coaching program, “ConneXions.” No stone is left unturned as Shari exposes the perils of influencer culture and shares for the first time her battle for truth and survival in the face of her mother’s cruelty.

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    Hi! There's a lot of new users so I'll introduce myself again (coming up on my one year pagebound anniversary next month :) Name/alias: Smilepal/Smile Currently reading: The Geographer's Map to Romance (India Holton), and Leaves of Grass (Walt Whitman) Last 5-star book: Wolf Worm (T. Kingfisher) Last 1-star book: The Blade Itself (Joe Abercrombie) Favorite genres: I like a little bit of everything, but my favorites tend to be fantasy, non-fiction and romance A non book-related hobby: I love hiking with my dog! I also am a big gamer, and a fan of diamond art (soooo relaxing!), baking, drawing, writing, and listening to bookish podcasts/YouTube essays. I'm also always on the hunt for all the best coffee shops, and it's usually the first thing I try to find in a new town (along with a nice bookstore of course 📚)

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