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Endlings: A Collection of Poems About Extinct Animals
Joanna Lilley
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ayzrules commented on crybabybea's review of Vampires of El Norte
I am not a romance enjoyer. Rather, I struggle to read books that heavily feature romance because I often find that I can't suspend my disbelief enough to really get invested. Unfortunately, this issue was very prevalent while reading Vampires of El Norte.
While at first I enjoyed the yearning between Nestor and Nena, as the book wore on, I found myself exhausted by it. Their constant miscommunication and being stuck in their own heads was absolute torture. The internal battles of the characters as individuals are moving and insightful. Nena struggling with a deep abandonment wound, wearing a mask to seem strong and capable while falling apart inside, and Nestor grappling with immense guilt and feeling like he will never be enough to deserve love.
However, I felt like they weren't given the space to really interrogate or explore themselves outside of each other. Much of the internal struggle happens off-page, told tangentially by side characters, rather than experienced in the narrative itself. CaƱas' writing is truly the only saving grace. When we do get to feel what the characters feel, it's evocative and poignant thanks to CaƱas' ability to display complex emotion without talking down to the reader.
Still, Nena and Nestor's internal struggles were compelling, and made more evolved by the introduction of class struggle, patriarchal gender roles, and the introduction of colonial belief systems. Truthfully, it felt like a drag knowing that the romance was the main concern of the story, when there was so much potential in everything else. There are eyeless vampires and evil white men coming, and we're worried about kissing! Kim, there's people that are dying? yes, i know, this is the point of a romance book
Her ability to blend together genre (western, historical romance, gothic horror? amazing) while staying grounded in her own world is incredible. Especially what stuck out to me was her use of rhetorical devices and how they were completely immersed in the characters' own heads. The western, historical imagery made the narration feel realistic and true to the timeline.
Secondarily, I loved the more meta analyses that CaƱas touched on. While the book is a ranchero romance (with vampires!), the themes circle around colonization vs. indigeneity, class, and gender. Unforunately, the heavy romance focus means that the themes fall flat, and aren't explored with the depth that they deserve. What should have been cutting commentary instead felt like a two-dimensional backdrop for the romance to take center stage.
Overall, Vampires of El Norte is a work that takes the hallmarks of beloved genres and blends them to great effect. While the heavy focus on romance personally made the book drag, the masterful writing and inclusion of deeper topics gives the book depth without becoming lost in abstraction.
I also have to note, I got this book spoiled for me three times. So I lost a lot of steam and really struggled to finish once I already knew what to expect, it really hampered my enjoyment a lot :(
ayzrules commented on a post from the Pagebound Club forum
I'm always curious when I see a List that's been downvoted. I understand the purpose of downvoting, especially in the Club if someone says something disagreeable or offensive. But for Lists, I'm often surprised to see a List with downvotes. Can y'all tell me why you might downvote a List? I'm genuinely curious!
ayzrules commented on kellam_reads's review of This Fatal Kiss
the characters had me hooked from the start!!
BUT NO ONE TOLD ME IT WAS PART OF A SERIES.
i turned the last page and was SHOCKED. a jumpscare some might say. a personal attack on me tbh
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"Maybe from now on we should all say 'holy clit.'"
"No matter what, there is a 97 to 99 percent chance that I am going to incorporate the phrase 'holy clit' into my vocabulary."
This feels ripped straight from a Buzzfeed article circa 2015 (derogatory)
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Not sure how I feel about the writing style yet. It contains a lot of short incomplete sentences used for emphasis which I know is more common nowadays but it's a style that seems a bit juvenile to me when it's used as often as it has been so far just in the first 10 pages. I hope it gets toned down a bit as the story continues.
I know this might be too early of a judgement but after hearing from everyone and their mother how amazing this book is, I guess I was expecting more mature prose to go along with this supposedly amazing story.
I love a narrator with a distinct narrative voice and was hoping I'd vibe with this one
I'm really hoping I can shake this off and get invested in the main characters soon.
ayzrules commented on fichannie's review of Carmilla: The First Vampire
i enjoyed it and itās ultimately a super quick read, but the pacing definitely feels rushed overall. the story is cool, just wished there was more time spent fleshing it out and building suspense. i really enjoyed the art style, the main characters, and the chinese mythology, though i wish they couldāve delved deeper into that lore. overall itās fun and worth checking out!
ayzrules commented on demon's review of The Starving Saints
one of these days iāll understand exactly how and why i enjoyed this book so much. i have so many thoughts and feelings that i canāt put into words because i want to dive into everything. i put off this review for like 2 weeks. for now i will just leave my 5-star rating with I love women and I love women who love women and leave it at that šāāļø
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Books for my diaspora heart
Books that illustrate some aspect of the immigrant experience - in fantasy, or in the real world; in childhood, or in old age; in history, or in the modern day. (work in progress - recs welcome!)
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This year's Spotify Wrapped is out and I thought it would be a good time to start a little recommendation game based on your most streamed album(/artist/song) this year! I recently saw a post doing a similar thing with the Letterboxd Four and thought it was a super cute idea.
Just post your personal album of the year in the comments and other users will do their best to find a book with similar vibes. (Of course you don't have to use Spotify to participate.)
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This was by far the best thing ive read this whole year! I loved every minute and had such a good time. Anton was the smuggest cockiest man going and I loved it š beautifully written in my opinion and could have kept reading for hours. She's now on my top 5 authors i think š„°