“Water your mother’s flowers with their blood.”

is giving a whole new meaning to being a green thumb 👩‍🌾🩸

“… and I hope, even now, that you would be proud of my determination to persist. God. Proud. Am I sick to still think on you softly, even after all the blood and broken promises?”

Ouch I know this feeling and it stings. You momentarily look back on something fondly and then the rational side of you has to shake you out of it, reminding yourself that the situation/person was toxic.

Chapter 30 It’s 4:05 in the morning, and I’ve just realized two things:

a. I should’ve been asleep hours ago. b. I’m in love with Rhysand — and I don’t even feel bad about it.. ❤️😍

How do you deal with the amount of interesting books that exist and the reality of time (as in, I need to sleep, eat, work -ew- and socialize) ? Yesterday I was looking through my unread books at home and each of them I thought "Oh yes I can't wait to get to this one, it's next !" until I had to admit there's a reason why some of them have been sitting on shelves for literal years.

Right now I'm reading 4 books at the same time and I feel like they're keeping me away from other books (maybe because they're also not really hitting that well). I went through my TBR to cut from 3000+ books all the way to barely 200 but I can't go lower than this, can't read them fast enough before new books I'm going to add will come out, be written.

I'm overwhelmed with how many books there are in the world, some of them not even written yet, and the factual amount of time I get now and will get in the future. Objectively I will never be able to read everything I'm interested in.

It feels like an urgency, sometimes it makes me sad, but more often it's frustration at how slow I can read, not good enough books that kept me away from better ones.

How do you perceive the pile of books and the concept of time ?

"In this world, you are what I say you are, and I say you are a ghost, a long night's fever dream that I have finally woken up from. I say you are the smoke-wisp memory of a flame, thawing ice suffering under an early spring sun, a chalk ledger of debts being wiped clean. I say you do not have a name."

Has anyone had the issue of not paying as close attention to a book when they listen to the auiobook instead of reading it? Sometimes I'm lucky enough to score both of the ebook and audiobook from the library, and sometimes I'll find myself saying "What?" or "Who?" later on when I'm further in the book because I zone out while I'm listening to the audiobook. I only listen to the audio books on my way to and from work, so that may play a part, but I've missed entire characters being introduced before.